Just ancillary to the task at hand
Is it possible to self reflect too much?
I try to look back on each day, and give my mind a chance to keep or remove the memories of the day. The goals I accomplished, the mistakes I made, the moments I want to keep, and those that I wish had never happened. Whether or not it actually helps with anything, I probably will never know.
But what if too much self reflection is doing the opposite of what I want it to? I do it so that I can learn to enjoy life, and the time I have. What if the act is actually what makes me think about how pointless life really is? I know the reasons everyone just thought of to dissuade me from that thought, and I tell them to myself constantly. It doesn’t help with the melancholy that appears every time I think of the big picture.
So what if I just stop thinking about the big picture? On a day to day basis, I’m, I like to think, a pretty positive up-beat guy. A pleasure to be around. I enjoy the little things, I enjoy bigger things. I seize each challenge as it comes and generally do a fine job overcoming them. It’s only when I start to think “What’s this all for, anyway?” or “Why am I really doing this?” that I start to think dour, bleak thoughts.
Is self delusion the ultimate tool for a happy life?